So, I haven’t really posted something ‘substantial’ in a while. Reason? My best guess is that my entire mental capacity has been in overdrive lately. So many things I’ve been learning and experiencing, it’s burning out my brain. Not only did I start (and finish! my finals week concluded with today) my freshman year of college this year, but I’ve also had extra curricular activities like NAVS (Navigators, a christian organization on campus) and also church & C4 (our college and young adult ministry at my church). So all of these things (wonderful as they are) going on all at once has put my mind in a mental fog. And unfortunately an emotional one as well.
My first semester I had struggles with doubts, as any college-goer or young adult might experience. But thankfully I kept reminding myself of who God is and I kept up my routine of learning about Him more by going to Bible Study on Monday nights, C4 on Tuesday, NAVS on Thursday, and church again on Sunday. It was all good information coming in, but I wasn’t giving myself time to digest it on my own.
Over time I feel like my memory has worsened, my deep thinking doesn’t go as deep as easily as it used to, and I can’t explain it, other than lack of practice. I haven’t tried to write a blog post simply because I didn’t know what to write about, same with song writing which I seem to have given up on back in middle school. I haven’t written a story segment in years and I haven’t even read any proper books fully for almost a year. I don’t like those facts.
I want a re-haul. I want to delve deeper in God’s word and in my own mind. I wand to rekindle the sparks of imagination from my youth and I want to read a good book now that this school year is finally over. I want to reconnect the roots and grow. I want peace and intrigue all rolled up together, which I know is possible. I’ve seen it before and I hope to capture it again throughout this upcoming summer. Prayer for a fervency for God’s word and the Holy Spirit would be much appreciated, Thank You. :)
XOXO ~ Juls